Another side

I want to cross the river to another side…
There is so bright and colorful. Many flowers and many butterflies are there.

The place that I stay now is not the interesting place. I feel bore staying in the same atmosphere, the same environment, the same place that I was born.

Have you ever felt like this? Sometime you stay in the same place for long time. You feel that every day in your life is the same. Nothing is going to be changing. Nothing is going to be exciting. Then you want a changing in your life.

Many people afraid of changing. They think that their life is stable and it is good enough. They do not have to take a risk in their destiny. I do not think so.

I think that everything has movement. The time is running, I am breathing. I never stand in the same spot. I never feel the same feeling in my memory. It is similar, just similar feeling. Then I never feel bore living my life.

I want to cross to another side of the river. There is nothing here, nothing interesting here anymore. When I look at the other side, it seems paradise to me. I stay here before I remember things. I want to go away. There is somewhere, in front of me, wild green field with the big tree, I cannot see the end of the green. I think if I were there, I would feel rich of glad.
I cannot cross the river in front of me because the water is too cold, and the river is too wild. The other side is too far for me. If only it was a little bit narrow. If only it was a little bit warm.

Many people always thing that if only I could do the thing I want, their life would be better, but they never really do it before. They never cross an obstacle in their mind. I see many people just talk about their dream and never do it. I know that they want to run away from the place they stay but they have never started to do it. Sometimes they feel like boring, but they do not do anything to change it. I do not think that my life is boring. You can try looking around yourself, in detail. You will see the difference of the world. When you thorough things, you will see the beauty in it. Sometimes you do not look at the trees in the path that you walk pass every day. You never see texture of bark, or flower. You will see it when you actually look at it.

I see the butterfly there. It is on the daisy. I want to go there and play with it.

The butterfly flies to me. It comes closer and closer. It flies pass my ear. I turn back to see it. In front of me, there is a wild green field, with big trees. I hear birds sing their song. I see the great place.

The little cat plays in that field with joyful.

lonely town

I stay in Bangkok. I grow up in a small community of Bangkok. I study in nice school, and nice environment. I have good teacher and good friends. Everything is nice to me. I do not like traffic jam in the city so when I finished high school I decided to study at Silpakorn University.

I think that I am one of most lucky girl who gets a good chance to study here. I would like to tell you that I do not care about my grade. I just want to study what I want, in a good place like here.

In my first year, I spent most of my time in activities such as Freshman Game, Theatre drama, and else. I have got so many friends from those activities. The lesson in the first year is not too hard. I study in the morning and do the activities in the evening. One of my friends has a good time as I have. She stays with me almost all the time in the activities, but she do not come in class. First semester goes so fast. She does not make it good enough for her parent. Her mother does not want her to study here anymore.

She gets into the new University, which is one of the best Universities in Thailand, in the next year. It is in Bangkok. She is not so happy with new friends there. There are some different kinds of people in the city from people in the country. She tells me that there is the lonely place. She has only few friends who are not really good friends. I can hear the sadness in her voice. I cannot do anything.

I used to tell her about how happy I am when I stay here. Now I do not tell her any more.

She feels sad about herself. She always say that she loss some part of her heart. All I can do is listen to her.

I should know that how much of my happiness could hurt her. She cries of her life, the life that cannot change. She waits for the day that she can do whatever she wants, when she graduates.

Not only my close friend feels sad about staying in the city with lonely feeling, I also know other people who feel lonely when they go to study in the Universities in Bangkok. They do not want to go to study. They do not want to see the eye of stranger when other people look at them.

In these day, when I go to Bangkok, I walk in the street, there are many people waiting for the bus. Many people walk in unhappy face. I do not know where the smile in their face is. I do not like it at all. I know that everyone has to think of their work or their life, but life in these day do not have any good things to thinking about any more. I do not want to stay in this place. There is no place to take a rest and make me feel happy. I have to run away, somewhere.

This is a sad story of the people in the town. I really do not know what happen in this town. The world goes round and change the way of our living. People change their mind to be stranger. Am I going to be the one of lonely person in this lonely town? I really do not know

Fish and Crab

This is a new story of friendship.

A Clown Fish blows many bubbles,
Some are big,
Some are small.
She born in a clearly water.
She swims so fast, faster than every clown fish.

One day, a Crab Junior passes by.
He has no friend.
She looks friendly.
He wants to be her friend.
She is glad that she will have new friend.
The Crab Junior thinks of a game to play.
“Pao Ying Chub” is a funny game to try.
This is the instruction,
When we say “Pao Ying Chub”
Your hand can be three things.
Paper, Hammer, and Scissors
Paper wins Hammer,
Hammer wins Scissors,
And Scissors wins Paper.

“Pao Ying Chub”
Crab Junior has got Scissors.
A Clown Fish has got Paper.
He wins.

“Pao Ying Chub”
Crab Junior has got Scissors.
A Clown Fish has got Paper.
He wins.

“Pao Ying Chub”
Crab Junior has got Scissors.
A Clown Fish has got Paper.
He wins again.

How can she win him because Crab junior has scissors hand, and she has paper hand.
“I do not want to lose you again and again anymore.
Let’s play something else.”

They change the game.
“Run and Catch”
Clown Fish will swim away.
Crab Junior will catch her.
She swims so fast.
He tries to catch her.

Rush…Rush…Rush…
He grabs her.

Grab…
Her

Crab Junior forgets that he has got scissors hand.
He cut her in two parts.

Just two minutes that they are friends.
The happiness becomes tragedy.
She feels a little bit sorry.
But she is okay.

“Never mind,
I was born in the clearly water
And die in the clearly water.
There is nothing to feel sad.
Crab Junior,
Don’t cry for the nice friendship that you give to me.
We just give and take it a short time,
And I have a short life.
That is all.
Good Bye, Crab Junior.
Good bye.”

Crab Junior feels sorry with everything he has done.

Friendship between the Clown Fish and Crab Junior is an innocent tragedy.
I think there are so many times that I hurt my friend’s feeling without meaning.
Sometimes they forgive, sometimes they forget.

I think I cannot judge which is really wrong. I think no one want to do wrong to anybody.
It depends on the intention. Everybody can make mistake to friend although he or she does not mean it.
The mistake can be happened by chance. Sometimes I want to help my friend to clean the room, but she cannot find her stuff. Sometime I want to be alone when I feel bad, but my friend wants to stay with me because she is worry about me.
I have to learn the difference of them. I learn that nothing wrong about friendship. It is wrong by purpose.

Pink in Blue

The meanings of color are told by the feeling that they express. Blue means lonely or sad. Pink means lively or cute.

I have my own meaning of color. In my opinion, the saddest color for me is pink. I write a story of “Pink Cloud.”

A Little Pink Cloud blows upon the sky.
There are many buildings along the way.
It takes not so long time until the Pink Cloud sees a long wide green field.
It is so green.
He sees a small cottage in the middle of the field.
This is a nice place.

A long time ago,
He saw many of his friends became rain.
They dropped so heavy in the city.

He confuses.
He does not remember the beginning of himself.
He knows that he never grows up.
He cannot change to be grey, he never changes.

At the beginning, he thinks it is funny to fly in the sky.
Blow with the wind in the wide world.
He enjoys traveling.
He enjoys flying.

Now, he does not know who he is?
He feels flowerless in his cloud’s heart.
He cannot express his sad feeling as his friends do.
His friends will become gray and cry in rain.
His blossom heart comes to fall.

Am I a really cloud?
What am I?

He is pink as always.
His heart contains hard rain in his heart so long.
He contains his feeling of confuse in his pink body.
He cannot cry it out.
A tear drops in his heart.

If only I can change.
If only I can be a really cloud.
I think I could release my sadness to go away.

A little cottage in the wide field, I see.
This is a beautiful place to take a rest.

His forgets his sadness in his mind.
That is my shadow,
Down there in the field.
Maybe, it is just a small shadow,
A buffalo can hide himself from the sun.

The Little Pink Cloud looks at the buffalo,
And smiles.
The buffalo smiles too.
He looks so happy.
The Pink Cloud thinks.
His heart finds a beautiful corner in his body.
In this place,
He finds happiness of being Pink Cloud.
I cannot drop the rain.
But I have a shadow to hide from the sunshine.
He gives all his love to the earth.
He gives a shadow to take a rest and hide.
The wind blow.
He smiles.

Pink is pink. It is never be something else.
That is the saddest in itself. If I cannot express my sadness I have, I could not cry.
Just like a Little Pink Cloud. It is happy ending in this story.
The Pink Cloud can finally find the good thing in him.
I wish I could find it when I feel bad too.